Sometimes, being yourself is hard. After a while, you become someone people expect of you. You change a little bit, and those closest to you gawk, wondering why. So you go back to "normal" around them. It's not easy to change.
Which is why I like the opportunity to be in a new place. I don't have to be that same girl anymore. Quiet, scared, alone.
The thing is, when no one else is around, I'm like that again. It's not easy. I still have depression, I still have social anxiety. Making new friends is great, it's just... Well, it's the same questions I've had before. Who'll stay? Who'll go? Will it be my fault, or a choice of theirs?
Sometimes I wish I could just run. Maybe not away, because I don't want to leave my mess for others to clean up. I just want to run, to fly, just for one minute, just to feel free.
Which is why:
I write- To discover more of who I am.
I sing- To feel my strength come through me.
I talk- To help others and myself.
I believe- To have hope when there is none.
I am me.
Song of the month will go for the last few days of this month and December. I'm surprised I didn't change it when I posted a few weeks ago.
Credits go to the writers/singer/everyone else who went into this song:
-Kayla
Thank you for starting this blog. It's helped a lot. I just thought you should know. :)
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